● Aftermath of O levels and AFA @ Sunday, November 14, 2010 ●

I wanted to run out of the hall and scream "F**K YEAH. O LEVELS ARE OVER."

... Nah, too scared. = w=;;
-bangs head on wall-

So, after the paper, Suzu and I went to my house and changed.
So, we went to Parkway to play L4D.

"Do you feel it? The wind of FREEDOM!!" - Suzu

After playing L4D and fetching Suzu off, I rushed to the airport, where I met Kazu.
FINE, I DON'T SUIT THE ONE I AM WEARING, but hey, at least I wear something different from the usual. OTL

Met Night and Sakurazaki!! \ 0 /
Saw them cutting and preparing their Cure card...

... and got tempted. OTL
Will. Wait. For. Better. Cosplays. And. Better. Photos. OTL

Naoki arrived in Singapore~ \ 0 /
She asked Kazu and I to be her host in Singapore, and we agreed.
Turned out that there is a host prepared for her.
Ah well! We went to accompany her to eat dinner, and was a little messy. -headdesk-
And they start distributing Cure cards.

Went back home late for the first time after O levels. -sighs of relief- = w=;;

AFA day 1
Called Kazu early in the morning and went back to sleep.
That's all for today. 8D


Joking. OTL
So, rushed down to get Night's tape and Kazu's tape.
And rushed down to Suntec Cityyy~
After reaching there, accompanied Night in the toilet to change, and Kazu called me out to do his make-up.
I was pratically panicking doing his make-up, because I seriously rushing to finish it so he can go elsewhere for photoshoot.
... but it seemed I took a longer time. OTL
-bangs head on wall-

So Kazu and I walked around, he had photoshoot, and ...
.... my throat drastically got SUPER dry.

My stomach also starts to hurt, and I was hoping I could have a nap while he have photoshoot, but a concert was disturbing my sleep. So forget it. OTL
So we went to have dinner, and since I was super thristy, I bought a Pepsi, and just when I was going to buy food, Kazu told me we had to rush up again. -facepalm-
So my Pepsi is the only source of food. : D

After his photoshoot, we decided to go to McDonalds, and I decided to buy ... just a McNuggets set. Spent time with him, and went home.
Then went to sleep! But was worrying about his make-up and stuffs, so could not really sleep...

AFA Day 2
... wh-
... nevermind. Woke up at 6 AM, hoping to sleep again, but pratically fail because of my stupid stomach. Fine, fine.
Stomach, you want to be a bitch to me, I be bitch to you. No food. T8<
So I started play Pocket God till I am satisfied.

Around 9 AM, I called Kazu and decided to go to his house.
Okay, social link, go! -Persona 4 music theme-


I went out with my mum~
She talked to me about the pills she bought and told me to be careful and must exercise.
Thanks mum, I will. OTL
Went a little shopping at the market and bought a cute skirt~
But don't know whether can suit me or not. OTL
Rushed to his bus stop, and dreamed all the way to his house.
Woke him up, got some reference, stared at his ... chui ... wig.
Then rushed out.

Must remind self NEVER to take that sushi EVER again. OTL
I nearly wanted to throw away the sushi because I lost appetite, but he told me not to waste food, so threw one section of the sushi I do not like into the plastic thingy, and ate the rest. PHEW. = 3=

Went to the same hall as yesterday, and I saw Jasmine, Natsu and Mystics there~
Since I am Kazu's make-up artist, I decided to help the rest too, because they are new to Cosplay.

Rushed through Natsu's pimpley face, helped Jasmine with her wig, and Mystics finally finished tidying Jasmine's wig, helped Mystics with her red make-up blusher~, helped Jasmine do her eyebrows and contour, and helped Kazu do his make-up.

Kazu's make-up is the longest one, as usual. OTL

After that, my stomach started to act up. First thing in my mind "... CRAP. OTL"
After sitting down for so long, I stood up and followed Kazu, but he walked so energetically till I cannot catch up with him...

Saikang warrior - 1

I then sat down and leaned on the wall, and my stomach started to act up very badly. I decided to vomit out. Sheyan then followed me to the toilet, where I tried forcely vomit out the disturbing sushi, but apparently it was all stomach fluid gas. The pain slowly dispersed around my stomach area, but less pain. Sat down at the same spot, and slowly chat away....

Mystics then got back from her cosplaying, and wanted to eat her lunch. Chatted with her, then Bentoh and Nefuro joined in, chatted with Nefuro and with my shivering hands and chattering of teeth, and laughed~

SO, after 4 hours of sitting at the same spot, chattering of my teeth, freezing like hell, shivering like no end, waiting like an idiot, no signs of Kazu pei-ing me.
I kept waiting, until someone told me that my fingernails are starting to look like the colour blue.
I instantly cried. Because I pratically waited for him and my stomach is not helping AT ALL.

After seeing BenJ and talking to him, hiding my stupid tears, he went off, rushing, and soon later,


Oh great, he finally appeared, and I broke down again. My hands were freezing and my feet were freezing too. Kazu was worried and started to keep me warm.

Soon, everyone else got back, and wanting to get out of that damn hall, I rushed Kazu, because my stomach started to act up again. The weird vomiting feeling. ; A;!!

After eating and gossiping with Jasmine, Leonard, Kazu and ... I don't know his name de guy, I felt better but super weird. Went back home with a little arguments and apologies, bathed in SUPER HOT WATER.

HEAVEN. I AM ON CLOUD NINE. Homg, seriously traumatized. I don't dare to switch on my aircon ever again. OTL

and I think I have fever. Ah well. Rest tomorrow bah. OTL


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● Review for whatever I had been doing. @ Wednesday, October 20, 2010 ●

I know I am not supposed to do this, but...

A few more minutes, and I have to go. Argh.
Today, is the start of O levels.
Which is practical, science, practical.
I am fine with Chemistry, but screwed for Biology.

Yay, thank you Biology for adding colours to my life!! -sarcasm-

Goodness, I had been studying, staying at home, cramming for how long?
My legs were so stiff when I got out of the house to meet him, once in the blue moon chances.
T uT
I lost balance, really. OTL

Okay, time to prepare.

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● Review for ... the months that I did not update. 8D @ Friday, September 24, 2010 ●

Yeah, I was lazy. HOHO.

So, my art is completed, FINALLY. Goodness, it took up my prelims timing. OTL
No wonder I flunked for Maths paper 1. -smacks head on bed-

My room is re-arranged in the manner that it became cosier and more comfortable. Not to mention, they installed an air-con in my room, which also adds in to the cosy and comfortable atmosphere.

Which means, I am screwed, as I will be distracted from studies.

I have a solution though, which is study outside. Ryuna Jas has been helping me by telling me to finish my work before going home. Very glad to be back with her again. :D

Also, I have talked to Alanna and Saleha again, that means my depression is fully gone. However, I lost my confidence.

Last time, I kept thinking "Faster get it over and done with."
Now, thinking about it, I wish there is more time for me to get prepared. So yeah, I am not prepared for O levels, and I am pratically panicking. Yet, other people were like "I am more worried about your examinations than you are."

Truth is, I was, also, panicking, but I don't show it on my face.
Because once I panic, I will get nervous and scaed, and I will cry.
So I forced myself not to panic.
Yet, instead of panicking, I am more of worried.
They say "Don't worry! You can do it de!"
Thanks, but, no thanks. I am not sure myself anymore.
I will try my best, but will prepared for the worse.

Alright, it is 2 going to 3, and Kazu is having his second day of work today. Three more days, and after his NS test, he is free. So, time to occupy my time by going to the library and study bah.

So so, see ya after O levels!
I will come in to check once in the while.
See ya!!

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● [ . April's Update . ] @ Sunday, May 09, 2010 ●

Another month passed. Again.
I got myself out of depression, started to smile more.
Nah, I don't want to waste my life saying how life sucks.
Re-assure, sister, I won't be those people who kill themselves.
I love my life already, with great sister and great parents.
So yeap! :3

So, Mid-years started.
Arghh!! I want to just ... smack everything and run off.
Yay! Happy~ 8D
Was able to talk to Night again. <3
Ahh, so much things happened. Then Kazu did his Miku Sandplay Dragon version.
So. Much. Prettier. Than. Me. DAMMIT. D:
RAWR, Kazuuu!!! You learnt from me, is it?! TT wTT;;

Started laughing like no one's business and started to have more friends.
Also, my father approved of Kazu being my boyfriend!
I was SHOCKED when my mother told me "Your father accepted him as a boyfriend already!"
The problem is, Kazu has to talk to my father, or my father change his mind. @ w@;
Oto-san!! You too mean lar! ; 3;
Then ... my photoshoot come.
Argh, it is just yesterday and it like ... 10th May!!
Homg, I am that slow to update my blog. ; w;

f(x) is back with awesome music.
I fell in love with this song.

... High-pitched much? Haha. xD
Should I let Kazu listen? Make him girlier? 8D
-got shot-


LOVE YOU ALL. Thanks for being there for me when I was depressed!

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● . March Review . @ Monday, April 12, 2010 ●

... It had been a while. Since I lasted blogged.
Sorry, was busy, depressed and mood-swinging like mad.

After that incident, my caring best friends left me.
I fell straight into depression.
Yes, to people who went out with me, I was pulling a fake smile.
Forgive me, I really have no mood to smile, so pulling a fake smile is the least I can do.
I suffered about 3-4 weeks depression, and I hate to say it but I am still facing depression.
It is not his fault, it is something else.

Okay~ So let's start with March holidays.
Stressed, bored and deprived of his appearance, I braced myself by going out with oka-san and my friends.
and sadly enough, I totally forgotten how he looks like.
Oh god, what kind of girlfriend am I. -facepalm-
So my holidays ended with his arrival.
Since he missed out White Day, he gave me a couple ring on that exact day.
Together with a usagi pencil box and a panda plushie.

The next day was his belated birthday party.
I will not explain more because explaining it more hurts me.
That day was the most horrifying but painfully memorable for me.

After that, I could not concentrate in class.
I dozed off everytime I want to focus.
but everytime I think about it, mood drops, and I just want to close my eyes and sleep forever.
And surprisingly, I forgot a lot of information during that week.
I felt like stepping into a brand new school.

... Yeah, it is scary.
This is my important year, and I felt new to everything.
Okay, I will not brag into this.
So, my skin got worse, due to stress and the hot weather.
I am getting lack of sleep, because I choose to wait for someone's phone call.
Now I am sooo sleepy till I thought it was 12+ when it is just 9:35.

Right now, I have decided to stop cosplaying for a time being.
The lastest I will be doing is on Cosfest.
Or so. I am not so sure...
Whatever is it, I will be hitting more on photoshoots next year.
I will start on 'SHERYL☆' project and 'Megurine Luka' project.
Yeah, icons FTW~

Photos from Vocaloid and Kuroshitsuji have yet to be editted...
ARGH, I want photoshop again.

Yeah, have been hearing depressing songs.
I hope my depression get away before I will just fall deeply...


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● [ . February Review . ] @ Tuesday, March 02, 2010 ●

Lollipop Part 2 is in my head.
... Sheesh, what a way to start off my review.

Anyway, February ... is ... the toughest month ... I ever ... encountered.
Also meaning that February is one hell of the year.
Let me see, what happened during this month :
- My phone got consficated.
- CAs is really screwed up.
- Used up about 50% of my ang bao money.
- Mood swings screwed up my brain.
- Just screwed up.
Anyway. One month down, a few more months till many many obstacles I yet to face.
Oh God, how long am I going to endure all these craps...

February, I celebrated early Valentine's Day with Kazu because Valentine's Day is on Chinese New Year.
... and we can't celebrate on Chinese New Year, because we have visiting to do.
Right now, I am waiting for White Day.

... You don't know what's White Day?
I shall explain.
In Japanese culture, on Valentine's Day, females gives to their lovers or crushes something to show their love.
On White Day, which is one month after Valentine's Day, males give their lovers a gift to thank them for showing their love.
or something like that.

As I was saying, in the month of February, we have CA.
Some teachers are really helpful, and are so good that even arranged a retest for us...
While some just smack our papers back to us, saying we fail.
Stressed much? Awesome...
Nowadays, I am having lack of sleep.
Even it is hard to keep awake during lessons...
Ah sheesh! MUST NOT GIVE UP. -smacks self awake-
It is really time to make use of the time. @ A@;;

I did not cosplay for one whole month~ Woohoo~
Should keep up this way, huh. I wonder.
Teru told me to set up my priorities, and the first one is studying.
I did not forget you, Kazu~ It is just that 'O' levels love killing us.
So yeah. -emos-

Holidays are coming and YAY, I finally have my sleep.
... I think.
Let me see. -takes out schedule-
15th March - Photoshoot with Kazu.
16th March - Party~
20th March - The Cathay or chalet... Still thinking.
Ah well, the rest of the free days, I shall hit the books.
Literally. Hit the books. -slams books on table-

Hmm, I had changed a bit, becoming more enthu about my homework and rushing my studies...
Oh sheesh, forget it, I haven't change a bit, I am still tired. xD;;

Right now, K-ara songs are in my head.
Dammit, Suzu, you got me addicted to that butt-shaking song. -headdesk-
And this is one of their new songs~
K-ara - Lupin

Alright, I shall await for the next review


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● January's Review @ Thursday, February 04, 2010 ●

Hey hey~ Masaaki Miho here.

2010 started off fine, until I lost my voice with sore throat.
Hard straining my voice, especially through the phone.
So missed one whole week of school. : D
Unfortunately, I did not really catch up with everything, was lost at week 3.
Teachers then expected me to pass up, but was still trying to rush everything.
After much cramming, still did not pass up because I forgot to bring.
Chinese teacher called, and I went crazy.
I admitted I did not really do the homework, but I swear that I passed up the homework.
Now is English teacher, and I broke down a total of four times.
It is because I forgot the English template was underneath a pile of books and did not bring to school for a whole week, she lost my trust.
Pretty much nearly wanted to go crazy and cry in public.
Oh wait, I did. . A.
Please, it is embarassing. TT ATT;;

Everyone now is asking about my homework.
and I really feel like going crazy.
For this whole month, I can't believe how many homework I finished.
It is not like last time. That's why I am shocked.
I also thought this month is March, when it is just February or January.
Even my favourite hobby is driving me to the wall.
I can't sew, I have to find tailor.
I can't do make-up, I have to ask a friend.
I can't do props, ... that is for real.
I can't really style my wig, but seriously, I suck at it.
I broke all the rules for a real cosplayer.
So practically, I fail.
No one is supporting me, except for Izumi and Teru.
... I don't know about Kazu, but yeah.

I had scheduled myself with gym trainings and going out for this semester.
Monday - Hit the gym with Jovin, train her.
Tuesday - Hit the gym. ( replace with anything which is more important. )
Wednesday - ( Current ) CCA, at night, Hip Hop class.
Thursday - Hit the gym with Suzu, then study with her.
Friday - ( Current ) CCA.
Saturday - Chinese tuition in the morning, hand out with Kazu later.
Sunday - Follow my sister to her dance class, then go shopping.
Yes, I am watching my diet and my studies.
Also joining Hip Hop classes because I want to throw my stess on dancing.
I want slim figure, prease. -prays- TT ATT;;

Goals and aims -
♪Get about 10 - 16 points for 'O' levels
♪Dance like BoA
♪Get into a Design or Media School
♪Continue having a strong relationship with Kazu and my sister. ♥
♪Hanging out with my best friends, Saleha and Alanna, more often. ;3
♪Be more positive.

Haha, my designing for post sucks. 8D
Here is a song I am currently obsessed with~ ♥

The way she dance is AWESOME and so as her songs.
Great that she hit the USA, heh? :3

Alright, going to have Bio test tomorrow.
Wait for next month's review. 8D


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