@ Thursday, March 19, 2009 ●

I want to cosplay more.
I seriously want to.

Sucks to have people who does not understand what is your favourite hobby.
Sucks to have restrictions.
Sucks to have limitions.
Sucks to have dumbness and childhood deprivation.
Sucks to have a forgetful memory.

Sucks to be me.

Everytime I see cosplayers proudly posting their pictures only, I only sit on this pathetic chair, staring or envying the cosplayer.
I want to cosplay more.

... But I lack the skills.
I don't even know how to sew.
I don't even know how to use the chalk.
I don't even know how to plan out the cloth.

and it hurts me a lot.
I am becoming plain dumber... and dumber.
I am rotting physically and mentally.
Over small things, I started crying.
... What is going on with me?
What is wrong with me?

I don't know.


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