... It had been a while. Since I lasted blogged. Sorry, was busy, depressed and mood-swinging like mad.
After that incident, my caring best friends left me. I fell straight into depression. Yes, to people who went out with me, I was pulling a fake smile. Forgive me, I really have no mood to smile, so pulling a fake smile is the least I can do. I suffered about 3-4 weeks depression, and I hate to say it but I am still facing depression. It is not his fault, it is something else.
Okay~ So let's start with March holidays. Stressed, bored and deprived of his appearance, I braced myself by going out with oka-san and my friends. and sadly enough, I totally forgotten how he looks like. Oh god, what kind of girlfriend am I. -facepalm- So my holidays ended with his arrival. Since he missed out White Day, he gave me a couple ring on that exact day. Together with a usagi pencil box and a panda plushie.
The next day was his belated birthday party. I will not explain more because explaining it more hurts me. That day was the most horrifying but painfully memorable for me.
After that, I could not concentrate in class. I dozed off everytime I want to focus. but everytime I think about it, mood drops, and I just want to close my eyes and sleep forever. And surprisingly, I forgot a lot of information during that week. I felt like stepping into a brand new school.
... Yeah, it is scary. This is my important year, and I felt new to everything. Okay, I will not brag into this. So, my skin got worse, due to stress and the hot weather. I am getting lack of sleep, because I choose to wait for someone's phone call. Now I am sooo sleepy till I thought it was 12+ when it is just 9:35.
Right now, I have decided to stop cosplaying for a time being. The lastest I will be doing is on Cosfest. Or so. I am not so sure... Whatever is it, I will be hitting more on photoshoots next year. I will start on 'SHERYL☆' project and 'Megurine Luka' project. Yeah, icons FTW~
Photos from Vocaloid and Kuroshitsuji have yet to be editted... ARGH, I want photoshop again. Music... Hmm.
Yeah, have been hearing depressing songs. I hope my depression get away before I will just fall deeply...
-Miho
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- †Name†: Masaaki Miho/Janice
- †D.O.B†: 21.07
- †Horoscope†: Cancer and Rooster
- †Currently 16 years old†
- †Very random at times†
- †A cosplayer†
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- Loves drawing
- Art Student
- Cosplayed about 3 years Current Aim :
-Lose until 58 KG. AT LEAST.
-Make costumes STRAIGHT after 'N' levels.
-Sell anything that I do not need.
-Learning sewing and how to make props.
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